July 13th, 2018 to Present. Musings of Mental Illness.

Blogging has been instrumental in ordering my experiences in a healthy and constructive way. For example, here I’m reflecting on getting kicked out of a program that I battled to contain myself within. 

The day I left my program I was content to just work. To put in 8 hours a day, not 10 not 15. To really rest. 

I’m so happy that  I don’t have to go back. The thought of going back gives me such a panic sorrow gage response. My body is telling me to chart a different course, to heal for once, to rest.  … More July 13th, 2018 to Present. Musings of Mental Illness.

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Writing down despair, Musings from Mental Illnesses. March 7th, 2017.

“Sometimes just being, working towards life. That enough. I wouldn’t be mocked for unraveled expectations incompatible with my reality.”
……
“I don’t have to convince anyone of the ribbons lynched around my veins.

I can’t stop you from seeing my body fettle by pain, by invisible burdens.

The voice, my voice is not easily harnessed.”


Time stops and stutters to taunt me.
I’ll use my energy when I see fit.
I’m not here to convince you of my pain.


I’m here to live through it.”

More Writing down despair, Musings from Mental Illnesses. March 7th, 2017.