The Personal Professional Biography of Johari Rose Du Pont

The Personal Professional Biography

of

Johari Rose Du Pont

A Depressed, Anxious, Academic, with Distressed Resilence

Fun Facts about depression from the Anxiety and Depression Association of America

“People with an anxiety disorder are three to five times more likely to go to the doctor and six times more likely to be hospitalized for psychiatric disorders than those who do not suffer from anxiety disorders.” ~ADAA

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Anxiety disorders develop from a complex set of risk factors, including genetics, brain chemistry, personality, and life events.” ~ADAA

Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)
“Women are twice as likely to be affected as men. GAD often co-occurs with major depression.”

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The report, based on the responses of 2,279 students in 26 nations, found that more than 40% of respondents had anxiety scores in the moderate to severe range, and that nearly 40% showed signs of moderate to severe depression.

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Recently, I’ve had a difficult transition from graduate school to the working world. I was let go from my graduate program because my depression crippled my ability to meet their 3.0 GPA requirement.
I have spent the last two years in my program putting my mental health first. Which is fighting the biology of my brain.

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“Anxiety disorders are highly treatable, yet only 36.9% of those suffering receive treatment.” ~ADAA

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To move forward with my degree I had to revisit childhood trauma, also I had the second coming of my childhood trauma, which amplified the intensity of my psychological distress.
After the first semester where I received two B’s and two C’s, the C’s are considered failing grades by my program and most graduate programs for that matter. But the weight of these failing grade just added to the disadvantages I already faced due to genetic predisposition and the trigger of a deleterious adolescence.
Despite what I had endured I’ve always trudged forward.

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“People with an anxiety disorder are three to five times more likely to go to the doctor and six times more likely to be hospitalized for psychiatric disorders than those who do not suffer from anxiety disorders.” ~ADAA

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For some context, before graduate school, I was taking the last summer of my undergraduate education in a study abroad program. My undergrad experience brought inspiring mentors and lifelong friendships.

  1. It also brought my father a heart attack, and then major surgery.
  2. My sister underwent major surgery because she was without kidneys for far too long.
  3. I finally served ties with parts of my family that are too toxic, damaging, invalidating!
  4. I left an abusive relationship because modeled negative relationships easily disrupt any healthy romantic unit. You can’t have what you don’t know.
  5. My next and current long-term relationship began in the first three weeks of us meeting. We moved in with each other and then professed our love for each other. After all of this, he left to a war zone for nine-month, which was super great for my abandonment issues Ha!

Fast forwards from going to school year-round and working multiple jobs to transition into graduate school. GradSchool just happened to be the ideal catalyst for my eventual burnout and the rise in the number of days I lost to depression.

I knew what I had to do after receiving two failing grades in my first semester of graduate school.

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Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)

“GAD affects 6.8 million adults, or 3.1% of the U.S. population, yet only 43.2% are receiving treatment.”

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During the first year, I would often sit down to study and then minutes later find myself in a panic attack leading to me trying to physically run away, avoiding my boyfriend’s view I usually hid in the closet with lots of pillows crying uncontrollably for hours.

You get the picture, I am not the pristine vision of psychical health I once was. If you know anything about psychology and or psychology then you should know that depression PSYCHICALLY ATTACKS YOU.

That’s why it’s in the DSM-5 as a psychological disorder and from a legal standpoint, a disability protected by the Americans with Disabilities Act (ADA).

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Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD)
“Women are twice as likely to be affected as men. GAD often co-occurs with major depression.”

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I immediately, I acquired health insurance, a psychologist, psychiatrist, mutually supportive lifetime friendships.

For a while, my grades were all passing the cutoff point (B= %80), I was struggling with finding the right type and dose of medication to use.

Medication turns down the severity of the psychical and psychological dysregulating characteristics of mental health disorders.

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Well, now you know why I’m not in graduate school.

If you got distracted by all of the quotes and links, welcome back.

I was dropped from my program because of my depression and ‘low’ grades.

What did I do about it?

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Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
PTSD affects 7.7 million adults, or 3.5% of the U.S. population.
Women are more likely to be affected than men.

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After graduate school ended in July 2018, I immediately applied to positions, sought out professional career advise, revised my application materials (erg., resume).

I did get a job, I got a full-time temp job that was the perfect place to develop my data analytics skills and my knowledge of systems in higher education.

After missing a lot of work days due to crippling depression, anxiety attacks, and some wonderful IBS flairs that lasted for days I was let go.

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Students are putting so much effort and energy into pursuing the degree that every single step can carry a lot of weight.

Certainly there’s fear of failure or perception of failure,”

says Christa Labouliere,

A clinical psychology professor and administrator for a suicide prevention program at New York State Psychiatric Institute, which is part of Columbia University Medical Center.”

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The only way I can move is forward after this much depress, rejection, & failure is to use the skills I gained in grad school and all of the educational experiences that I’ve had.

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As one of my favorite psychologist, the founder of humanistic psychology,

Carl Jung once said,

“In any given moment we have two options: to step forward into growth or to step back into safety.”’


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